You know you’ve adjusted to the new place when you’ve made the new friends, and then you realise that you made some bad judgments. There’s a kind of desperation that comes with moving away which makes you extremely understanding to the point of stupidity, also known as being temporarily blind to other people’s not very nice attutudes or dare I say, personalities. Recently I’ve had to question myself, and ask what happened to my previous approach to friendship. I mean as I have - hopefully - progressed through adulthood I have I think, become more discerning when it comes to people, and so why I ask, did I abandon all of that experience when I arrived here. I know the answer, and so do you. Simply and honestly, it was sheer loneliness. When I got here I was feeling scared and without the support network that surrounded me at home, and so I grabbed onto whatever semblance of comfort I could find. I grabbed it with both hands, and got them burnt I now discover. Thing about burns is, as anyone who has had the misfortune to have been burnt will tell you… they can be so deep that you don’t feel the pain until later. I also discovered that my ears had been burning too... It seems Perth is just like anywhere else in the world. You get the genuinely lovely, wonderful people who sincerely like you and enjoy your friendship, and then you get the not so pleasant people. I think it's ok that after four months, I am now settled and confident enough here to be more 'me'... to exercise my experience at little, and that is what I call progess.
The deep thinkers amongst you will maybe have detected the teeniest bit of cynicism from me. I’m feeling homesick… It was the sun wot’ did it you see! I read this morning that it’s 22 degrees in Glasgow and it made me really sad. I know it’s hotter here, but there’s that feeling you get back home when it’s been a long horrible winter and then one day you get up go out and you can literally smell the season has changed. You feel the warmth of that stranger, the sun on your skin and you know no matter how you might complain about the rubbish summer it will bring… the winter has finally ended. It’s like a special kind of seasonal gratitude that washes over you. And this morning I missed it, because you just don’t get the joy of it unless you’ve actually lived it. Enjoy the sunshine my friends, and Happy Easter. xxx
A little pressie for you below... life's too short to sit around miserable!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZR0v0i63PQ4
A little pressie for you below... life's too short to sit around miserable!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZR0v0i63PQ4
